The End of first term: FRESHMEN YEAR

Well, 1/8 of our university life is gone. time goes by way too quickly, or is it just life at mac too awesome for me to notice? haha that's a given for sure. i have not felt one bit of remorse for choosing mcmaster; adapting to this vibrant community wasn't hard at all. i've met so many people with a variety of positive attitudes, morals and utmost respect. so here's a little (more personal) thanks from me to you guys.


Karen
man, i dont even know where to begin. we've been through so much, counting back from the days of highgate public school... its been a whopping decade ever since we've met. thanks for being there always. honestly, whether it'd be for advice, homework, getting me food (ok maybe not always the case) you can count on MS KAREN HOHOHO :) ! i just want you to know that someday i will return the favour, no matter how wrong your future decisions may be, you have my support. you got that? all the best with school and you know who ;)


Jennifer
i cannot possibly comprehend your existence without mcmaster. if there's mcmaster there's jen. haha same can be said with you & cheese, you crazy alcoholic! im so glad i got a chance to know you better in hongkong. considering how we never really talked in high school, i dont think i would talk to you that much in mac too! haha thanks for supplying me drinks, even though u make great profit off me (ripping me off into competing for highest marks). i hate you and your stupid gaming addiction. people who game dont deserve high marks! lol im joking. thanks for being my competition.


Justin - fagnuthole. i dont know how many times i caught you passing out when its only like 2am, but if i were to count, my iphone is my friend! lol i've never met a guy as soft as you; you ask "are you ok?" to every slightest thing that happens to people haha that's funny. but yo that's a good thing. its been only half the term and you guys have already progressed so far, you better take care of her or im gonna kick your fucking ass!
Jason - we can count on you to be jen's gwai jai lam pun yau! wherever you are, you always have your badminton racquet. im not that good of a competition to you so dude, we gotta play some more. ps,"MY" iphone, get that straight in your head! LOL.


Maggie
you are one of the nicest and caring person i have ever met in my life. i really admire your stubbornness, like geez i clearly owe you 5 bucks why would it deserve to go in the garbage more than in your pocket :( i shouldve listened to kevin that day haha but thanks for everything. the word "thanks" won't really make sense to you, if its anything it should be a "sorry." i sincerely hope you accept my apology for my stupid mistakes. oh and i owe you a snowball. in YO FACE! :)



Eva
you are one unique individual. your perfectly brutal honesty, loud voice, mixed with your occasional pig-snort laugh, can seriously crack the fuck out of me. i have no idea how to describe your level of humour, its amazing.. on the outside, you may have an appearance of a big bitch bully :) JOKE!, but deep inside i know you have a caring heart. thanks for being true. whenever i have problems with anything, i'll know where to find the person with the greatest judgments. ps. you're highly addicted to facebook/stalking.


Other important people that made my experiences at mac any better than it already is: tim, susane, nico, sandy, natalie, kevin, jeff, simon, carolyn, kelvin, sarah, anna. i will never forget the everlasting moments of: frosh week, fresh meet, (attempt to go to)paranoir, res-wide formal, bates/les prince study parties, HEDDEN FAIL PARTIES, and all the numerous meals we had together at bistro, commons, student centre, wokery, boston pizza and kelseys. there you have it. thank you all for making my highly anticipated university life a great experience. i had a hell-of-a-blast first term. happy holidays and merry christmas :D hope to see you all in 2010 !!!

Thought

She's actually really persistent, the question she asked really made me think. who am i kidding, it's set in stone now... there's no going back. i kind of understand this sort of stuff.. or where it's coming from. it's a nice feeling, but it's still shrouded in confusion. i've never tried so hard to lie in my life, but hey she believed me. i dont know why or how i did it. but i know this can't be, its wrong for so many reasons. just shows how good of a liar i am.

Song stuck on my head

i wonder if you know it, how they live in tokyo
if you see me then you mean it then you know you have to go
FAST AND FURIOUSSSSSSS
dadadadadada

- after hours of brawl, we start studying for psych. NOT.

sigh..

everything sucks.

Good with the bad, happy & the sad

so i went home for the weekend! kind of a last minute decision too.. wanted to stay at mac but NO ONE WAS THERE.. cant study at home this sucks >:(

im kinda freaked out about finals right. first off the weight of exams in university entirely annihilates the 30% worth in high school. most of them worth around 50% give or take 10%. That is intimidating. I've never actually bombed any exams, usually they bring my mark up but now.. i can't say the same anymore. content wise, its not hard; the load is huge. worried about psych to the max.. cant believe im entering the exam with 69.4% FUCK. perfect on the exam leaves me with 81%. 80-84 means 10points out of 12. we dont follow the 4 point gpa system. i like ours better cause 90-100 = 12 points :D perfect in a course. mhmm still possible (bio? chem?) i hope :(

mhmmm

you don't have to worry about them.
they understand. they respect you for what you did
its fine now. move on and good luck :)

busy busy

These past 2 weeks have been pure hell for me.. i dont think i've ever relaxed for more than an hour :( but im glad everything is over.. well at least for now.

School has been a bitch to me, honestly. after the first wave of midterms past i didnt even have time to goof off or anything, i just kept going. going, studying nonstop. i managed to go to the gym 4 times a week during that time, but now its like what the hell is a gym... no freaking time whatsoever. last week, i had a math midterm on thursday and a chem midterm the day right after. can you say perfect timing? haha but to be on a happier note, i didnt think i did that bad on them :) i studied my ass off for math, forced myself to read the textbook nonstop for 50000 times even though it wasn't any use. math is seriously really hard now. its not my forte anymore... but i was really motivated to do good on this midterm because i recently received my psych midterm back. Let's just say i don't normally complain about not getting an 80, but my mark was in the 50's. i didnt even have the mood to complain, i just hid in my room for the whole day and wondered why im so retarded. seriously i've never gotten 50s in my life.. I was so MADDD.. but digging up the past won't lead to any pleasant future. so the old saying goes, TRY HARDER. yeeeeeah.

i wrote my second biology midterm yesterday. it wasnt that bad, but it wasnt that good either. one of my friends described the test as "funny." to be honest i agree 100%. this professor asks the most randomest questions, those that require no thinking but pure memorization. One of the question was if all the DNA in your body were lined up in a straight line, how many trips from mcmaster can it make to the moon? honestly. what the fuck i dont freaking pay 16000$ a year to learn about dumb fucking facts like that. to make it worse, i had to write a bio lab FORMAL report right after. i procrastinated that lab so bad, cause i honestly wanted to give my full attention on studying for the bio midterm. the result? walking back from Les Prince residence to Bates at 7am in the morning! in the freezing raining weather! awesome. my coughs not getting any better either. THANKS JEN, THANKS JUSTIN. haha i joke.

but yeah, i've been spazzing alot about school.. i kinda sound like a nerd don't i :) (or maybe i am ahah) school is literally my life these days, if it isn't for you, SHAME ON YOU ;( .. i seriously sleep at 5-6 everyday now, working on lab reports and studying the shit out of myself. my sleeping hours are so messed. but then again, i still see ~50 people online at 5am in the morning LOL. i dont even have time to care about my appearance in the morning. i dont fix my hair or put on contacts anymore.. theres just no time (because i always sleep in) i rush to class in hoping i'll make it for the iclicker questions. its a tedious job, but hey i need the marks lol.

i'm going home tomorrow :) haven't been home in 3 weeks.. i hope i can finally catch up in my sleep, and of course i miss my family very much. but im sure they miss me more lol. im too blind in school work to remember i even have a family hahah! no that was definitely a joke hehe. its my dad's birthday this sunday. he's gonna turn... 49? or was it 50 LOL but wow.. my parents are getting old. but hey im in university, it only makes sense. but sometimes i feel that time is moving way too fast... the first half my first year of university is almost over. and soon i will graduate and for sure will miss mcmaster. it's such a vibrant community, i would consider studying my masters here and work as a prof. seriously! haha as if i can :P wow i blabbed so much! one of my good friends told me once, my writing style is not that well structured LOL. i write with my heart, whatever comes out, is whats on the page right now. i dont know if that made sense, or it just sounded too corny? lol anyways. its time for me to sleep. good night.

..

have you ever had the feeling
when you care so much for this person
and in return they do nothing back for you
are they blind? or do they just don't care
cause honestly, this hurts alot...

Nothing

I just felt like I said goodbye

I'll be waiting

So i just wrote my first university midterm TEST ! not that much different than a high school test except we wrote it in a tennis court - dome thing? LOL, amazing place to write in. but overall, the level of difficulty wasn't that bad, there was alot of stuff she could have asked. felt like i overstudied. now im so fucked up for math. i seriously dont get anything in math now... all these epsilons and deltas what the flying shitttt !! next week i have a math midterm on wednesday and on the same week a chem midterm on friday. but its thanksgiviing this week so i guess its something to look towards (and study math like a bitch).

At first i wasn't planning to go home this weekend, cause of all the midterms, but its thanksgiving and no one's going to be on campus anyways. might as well, since im going to a reunion ! and rejecting that wouldn't be nice :( i hope our little get-together wont end up as a arguementative debate. people siding with others, stating what the other party did wrong, making unsupported accusations and shit like that. i will be the first one out the door if that happens. lets hope it won't happen and we can all get into an agreement on this. friends are meant to be forever, at least thats what i believe.

Mr Independent

Well school has been insanely busy. bio midterm tomorrow, but not all that nervous or depressed! surprisingly, i was really into my bio these few days; literally spent 4 hours in the library hardcore nerding! i guess its a good thing, cause im really motivated to do well in university. i've found a goal to work towards to, its not an easy path but i've got to give it my all. my parents aren't paying me to have fun in university. someday, and oh you bet i will, pay them back in every possible way whether it'd be LOVE OR MONEY. haha

Beginning

i just thought you would like to know i have never really written a blog before.. so if anything doesn't make sense, just stop reading.

hmm so what am i suppose to write about lol i don't like talking about myself. but everyone has a blog and its so tempting to make one haha. i guess i can briefly start with what my life use to be a few months ago, and what it is now. For a while now, im feeling like shit.

back in june/july of 2009 was probably one of the best moments i've ever experienced in my life. this marked the end of high school, and that means we all shed tears and cry our eyes out and part our separate ways before university. but before that i've experienced a vast number of unforgettable moments during my last summer of high school. first and foremost, i have to thank my group of 13 friends for making the previous chapter of my life memorable. we've been through thick and thin; harsh times, ranging from prom to exams to camping trips to parties to dinners (i think we had more than 30 dinners together ahaha). its funny cause, i was only close to about 4-5 people at the start of grade 9. we met new people that we aren't familiar with in high school, and the friendships that builded from that day grew immensely; it still remains today. but it is sad that now we're all seperated because we all have our different goals in life, and therefore different preferences of universities. only 1 of my closest friends actually went to the mcmaster with me, thank god for that. i've known her since grade 3! its amazing how we still have contact (not to mention seeing her EVERYDAY). mhm but it's still not the same. i really do miss the old times. if given the chance, i would go back in time to experience it once more.

its october now, its been a month since school started. university is really a brand new experience. life is free, it's like i've escaped the clutches of my parent's grasps haha. welcome week was amazing. i've never actually participated in any retarded camp games, but i can't believe i did in frosh week! it felt like camp with all the intense levels of school spirit ranging from residence cheers to supporting the mac football team. after frosh, school started and things just got worse from there. im not disappointed at the fact that school is started though, its just that.. nvm best not say it.